One step closer to nowhere

i can't believe i'm here again
i thought i'd rounded this corner for good
and now again i stand, confused beyond belief
why, why?
it bites like a bitch
it's not a nice place to be
insanity
more insanity
and false hope
the last thing i can believe is that i'm here like THIS
stripped of my dignity
stripped of legibility
stripped of everything i thought i could recognise
i'm tired of lying awake at night thinking about things i don't understand
i'm groping my way in the dark, trying to find my way back to sanity again
except...
i'm not really sure what that means anymore